I'm a Busy Bee

It has been two months since my last post. I really don't know what is happening to me that I don't have the time to write something or anything. It doesn't mean that I'm busy when in fact I have all the time in the world. Last October till the first two weeks of November, I was almost being crazy because I was running from here to there trying to finish every academic requirement I must pass to graduate. Though I made it, there are certain reasons why I chose not to attend. It is all in the past now. As I've said, the past by and it will all become a memory though I did not obtain one, I'm just happy I've made it. No one can imagine how the last few weeks of my last semester feels like. So the happiness that I get from it was kind of priceless. 

Now, I'm alive and free. I can do anything that I want and be lazy for all I care. Originally I didn't plan to be like this. The typhoon ruined all the plans that I thought of for the last few months. Honestly since I was kind of carefree for college, I planned to change that after graduation. I will go home for Christmas and go to Manila in January to find work and be reunited again with my twin from another mother. Then the typhoon happened. I was so devastated because I know deep inside my plans are all ruined. I was in the stage of in denial. I worked hard to complete my requirements so that slowly my plans will all materialize. If truth be told,  I never work that hard in my almost five years in college. Aside from that, I was grade conscious once again. Trying so hard to get the grade that I want is hard especially if the professor is not cooperating. You can't even imagine the anxiety I get when the partial grade was given and my grade was almost far away from the one I desired. I did almost everything and that paid when I got my final grade. Enough of that sentiments.  

Last November 17, I was able to watch my first PBA game. I was beyond ecstatic. I will try to retrieve pictures and blog about it in a separate post. 

Aside from being lazy, I'm now a couch potato. Well, I admit I was like ever since but I concentrated last semester in studying though it was not obvious that I forgot the shows I'm watching. Right now, I'm watching four Korean drama and three Korean variety show, I think. Aside from that, I'm also watching too much television. Gonna catch up with PBA and UAAP volleyball started last Sunday. Seems like my week is full once again. I'm also behind from the American TV shows that I'm watching. I procrastinate too much and that's the result. 

I do not plan to find work now since I still can't get my credentials from the university. I'm still determined to work in Manila and make my dreams come true no matter what. My mother is so opposed to the idea. But then, I don't think she can do anything. I'm naturally stubborn and no one can change my decisions easily. 

I'll try to write about what I'm doing everyday tomorrow because I don't want this blog to be stacked up in the corner just like before. 

My Days Through Pictures

I'm so bored right now. I have a test to take two days from now but my photocopy is still with my classmate so I don't have a handout to study. Well, this day is ordinary one. I'm always like this, bored to death. I still have the same problems and the project in internal auditing is added to it. Headache overload! Starting tomorrow, I will try to solve my problems one by one. This is a chase if I will want to graduate. I just have to do well. 

This term I have a two hour vacant everyday after my first class. I only have two subjects that I'm required to attend everyday. Good thing I'm bringing the tablet. In this way, I have a distraction to the boredom I always experience. Yay! I can take pictures anywhere, everywhere and somewhere. 

So this is the compilation of the photos I have took for the past few days. 

Family dinner in Mang Inasal last September 20 to celebrate the birthday of my cousin. I absolutely thought that it is her 18th birthday. Poor me! I can't remember the age of all of my cousins. 

This was taken last September 12. I was supposed to study for my exam but then the bench where I'm stilling is so tempting that I ended up laying down. Good thing the basic education department don't have classes that day.

Finally! The tentative list of graduates is out and I can see my name on it. Spot my name!

And I want to cry. I accidentally erased my folder of the pictures I recently too. I was supposed to transfer them to different one because I kinda OC just like that. Thank heavens! I was able to save these pictures. I will browse my folders in the tablet if I still have other copies of those pictures there. I think have copies of those in the instagram folder. 

Till later!

Ciao! :)

A Piece of my Mind

These past few days, I have been kinda depressed over something or maybe over nothing. I have been feeling down since last week. Feeling down to the point that I eat more and more everyday and crave for sleep so much. The problem is that I can't sleep early. If ever I sleep early, there is a tendency that I will wake up in the middle of the night and find it a hard time to sleep again. I have this small hunch that the reason for all of this is my depression is my tendency not to accept the reality not until the day comes that the event presented itself. 

Emotional baggage is too much for me right now. Without knowing it, I already thinking about what the future may bring, the usual pressure I undertake and everything else. Can't actually believe that I lived my life under pressure. Maybe because from the start I have been a good girl and excels well in school. All of them expected me to be like that throughout my life. One mistake almost causes them severe disappointment. But I can't do anything about that, I can only act as if I don't know what happened so that I won't be sad. 

I'm not talking to my mother right now. I think that is one reason why I'm feeling so down. I just don't like it when they pass on the blame to other people when in fact I'm the one who should take the blame. So right now, I'm making kulit with my father about some trivial things every now and then. I bet when he sees me, he will scold for doing that. hahaha!

In all honesty, I don't want to discuss what is the core problem. I just don't have anyone to talk to. On the other hand, I don't want to bother my twin/best friend about these things since I know she have a series of problems of her own. Well, I'm a considerate bitch after all. hahaha

Since I just want a remembrance that I have a problem just like this in the midst of thinking what to wear for my graduation pictorial, I think I will leave some clues. 

And lastly, the video. 

I just wish I can watch. Hay life parang buhay! :(

Till next time!

Ciao! :)