My Days Through Pictures

I'm so bored right now. I have a test to take two days from now but my photocopy is still with my classmate so I don't have a handout to study. Well, this day is ordinary one. I'm always like this, bored to death. I still have the same problems and the project in internal auditing is added to it. Headache overload! Starting tomorrow, I will try to solve my problems one by one. This is a chase if I will want to graduate. I just have to do well. 

This term I have a two hour vacant everyday after my first class. I only have two subjects that I'm required to attend everyday. Good thing I'm bringing the tablet. In this way, I have a distraction to the boredom I always experience. Yay! I can take pictures anywhere, everywhere and somewhere. 

So this is the compilation of the photos I have took for the past few days. 

Family dinner in Mang Inasal last September 20 to celebrate the birthday of my cousin. I absolutely thought that it is her 18th birthday. Poor me! I can't remember the age of all of my cousins. 

This was taken last September 12. I was supposed to study for my exam but then the bench where I'm stilling is so tempting that I ended up laying down. Good thing the basic education department don't have classes that day.

Finally! The tentative list of graduates is out and I can see my name on it. Spot my name!

And I want to cry. I accidentally erased my folder of the pictures I recently too. I was supposed to transfer them to different one because I kinda OC just like that. Thank heavens! I was able to save these pictures. I will browse my folders in the tablet if I still have other copies of those pictures there. I think have copies of those in the instagram folder. 

Till later!

Ciao! :)

A Piece of my Mind

These past few days, I have been kinda depressed over something or maybe over nothing. I have been feeling down since last week. Feeling down to the point that I eat more and more everyday and crave for sleep so much. The problem is that I can't sleep early. If ever I sleep early, there is a tendency that I will wake up in the middle of the night and find it a hard time to sleep again. I have this small hunch that the reason for all of this is my depression is my tendency not to accept the reality not until the day comes that the event presented itself. 

Emotional baggage is too much for me right now. Without knowing it, I already thinking about what the future may bring, the usual pressure I undertake and everything else. Can't actually believe that I lived my life under pressure. Maybe because from the start I have been a good girl and excels well in school. All of them expected me to be like that throughout my life. One mistake almost causes them severe disappointment. But I can't do anything about that, I can only act as if I don't know what happened so that I won't be sad. 

I'm not talking to my mother right now. I think that is one reason why I'm feeling so down. I just don't like it when they pass on the blame to other people when in fact I'm the one who should take the blame. So right now, I'm making kulit with my father about some trivial things every now and then. I bet when he sees me, he will scold for doing that. hahaha!

In all honesty, I don't want to discuss what is the core problem. I just don't have anyone to talk to. On the other hand, I don't want to bother my twin/best friend about these things since I know she have a series of problems of her own. Well, I'm a considerate bitch after all. hahaha

Since I just want a remembrance that I have a problem just like this in the midst of thinking what to wear for my graduation pictorial, I think I will leave some clues. 

And lastly, the video. 

I just wish I can watch. Hay life parang buhay! :(

Till next time!

Ciao! :)

In the Midst of a Crossroad

I really don't know why I entitled this post that way. I'm in the midst of being an emo right now. Decisions are truly hard to make. You have to make different considerations so that you can come up with the right one even if it is not the best one. 

Eight months gone by so easily. My life which was so quiet was suddenly turned into a roller coaster one. All because of the so called KPop. I was truly infected with that disease if you can call that one as a disease. I was not really sure what I saw in them that I find them so irresistible.

The way I wrote in the first and second paragraph, as if I have the biggest problem in the world. Well, you  if are a fan maybe you can consider this as one. 

I'm a fan of Super Junior. But the kind that I will have problems if ever it will announced that they are in a relationship and the girl is not the one I'm shipping them for. I will only do that with CNBlue. I just love their songs and personalities. The evil maknae Kyuhyun and Donghae have a soft spot in my heart. I also consider Eunhyuk cute with his dancing skills. I wanna learn how Leeteuk handles the group though right now he is in the army. For me, Siwon is not the most handsome but he is definitely a looker. I could rant about them all day because definitely the fans loves them so much. They also gives the fans reasons why they are extremely lovable. If only you can see them in variety shows, you will be laughing till your stomach aches. 

So, the problem enters the scenario. 

Super Show 5 Manila will be happening in 53 days. I don't know what spirit possess me but I really want to watch. Maybe because it is a 3 - 3.5 hours show and the members have their own stage apparently. Unlike other shows, I think this one will be worth any money you will spend especially now that Heechul's back in town. It is still not sure what super show he will join but he is going to join one. 

This afternoon, the seat plan and ticket prices were announced. I was kinda shocked to see that the prices is also as the same as the ticket prices with the Blue Moon Manila though if you add the taxes it is still more expensive. 

I have a classmate that is willing use the installment plan of a bank just to watch the show. Maybe I can do that but I still have ask permission from my mama. Deep inside, I know my mama will not agree. Aigoo! Life, why so hard?!

If I go, I really want the VIP standing ticket. I just feel that you will really feel the concert if you will choose that though standing for 3 hours is no joke. For example, I will be contented with just lower box B. Let's just say that is four thousand with all the taxes plus plane fare then accommodations. Aigoo! I need almost ten thousand. Can I just jump off the cliff? 

Maybe, a miracle can happen and I can still watch the show. I should have relocated myself and live in Manila. Then I wouldn't worry about plane tickets and accommodations though I have some relatives. I just don't like them to worry about me. No regret comes first! That's why I'm regretting almost all my past decisions. Maybe since I started college I have been so reckless and careless in making decisions that's why I'm still lost and don't know where my destination would be. 

Still, I'm here now. So there's no need for further thinking. I will just think about the future. Since worrying about the past brings nothing but sadness. :)

Till next!

Ciao! :)